Five months ago I decided I was going to move to Louisiana on August first. Two weeks later around that time God said no. Today I would have been moving to Louisiana. I would have said goodbye to y'all and be moving down south, somewhere I've always dreamed I'd be.
Since five months ago until about a week ago I still had no idea what I was doing with my life. I've tried to move twice this year, but God has said no both times; because He has something greater if I'm obedient.
It's crazy how much things can change from now to then. By being obedient in the hard circumstances, God has revealed Himself to me. Last week was the first of seeing Him move for the first time in awhile; because this time I didn't have any distractions or things holding me back from paying attention to what HE has to say. Not me.
I'm a part of an internship at my church every Tuesday. At the end of every day we join the church's prayer group in prayer for an hour. Last week, they decided to pray over all nine interns. I was the second person they prayed for and I will never forget what happened that night. The Holy Spirit completely took over the room, for one who doesn't cry in public ever, I cried that night along with the rest of the group. One thing someone said that stuck out was that even though I want to go and travel and move and live spontaneous, I need to be obedient in where God has called me. God has called me here, in Massachusetts.
Be faithful in the small things so He can trust you with bigger.
That was hard to hear at first because I love to travel. That was the first step in God showing me what the next step in life is. The second step came during a conference called the Gathering I attended this weekend. On the last night they called everyone up for prayer. At one point someone came up to pray for me. They asked what I needed prayer for and I said vision. She started praying and I thought she would say a quick prayer and move on to the next. But God spoke through her and gave me the next step that I will be taking here in Massachusetts. Through her, God told me to start a women's ministry. The minute she said it I started crying and it felt like a huge burden was lifted off of me. This was the third time and final confirmation that this is what I need to be doing.
He's already started this by putting a couple young women/girls in my life to disciple and show His love to.
So, two days before I was supposed to be moving and staring new somewhere else, God gave me a plan and a vision to fulfill here. I still want to travel and I truly hope I'll be moving at some point for adventure. But God, chose me here and I will be joyful and faithful in where He has called me.